A year ago today...

I was probably studying AND crying my a** off. I think I broke down and cried at least three times... before September. I was alone for the most part of the review, which I thought was the ideal set-up = more time to study. However, come September, I was a wreck. More than the usual wreck, I guess. Sometimes, I'd be highlighting away with my dermatograph and the tears would suddenly flow. I'd cry for more than a few minutes then resume studying. Crazy. By September, I was just crying every freaking day that I managed to attend only a couple of pre-week sessions.

I didn't blog about what I was going through then, I was afraid I'd jinx it. Plus, I was trying to cut back on my Internet time. I allowed myself an hour max on the triple W every day, then I'd scare myself that if I spend one minute more in Nitro, I'd fail. If that didn't work, I consoled myself with the thought that after the Bar, I'd go home to our unlimited DSL access back in the province and surf to my heart's content. Which I did until I was obsessively clicking on the Refresh button as I ran out of sites to visit.

And now, I look back at the experience... and just smile.

August is merely hours away. Keeping my fingers crossed for my friends. Don't worry, y'all be smiling next year.

Capricorn

I don't subscribe to horoscopes and zodiac signs much but I do know that I'm a Capricorn and I do know that Capricorn is an Earth Sign. As an Earth Sign, Capricorns are known to be practical, stable, patient and careful. I admit to being all that. I am not spontaneous, I am not adventurous, I dislike unpleasant surprises. I don't like change, I live for consistency. I'm scared of earthquakes, both the literal and the figurative.

When I failed to qualify for my law school of choice, I did not apply for the other popular choice because I knew they'd cut the number of students year after year. For a big decision such as going to law school, I did not want to take risks. I did not want to gamble that after a year, two years, three years in school, I'd be made to transfer to another school. I don't want disruptions, interruptions of any sort.

As I ponder what lies ahead, I am certain I won't leap with both feet, with my eyes closed. Because when it comes to life-altering decisions, there's no ctrl z, there's no undo button. There's no System Recovery. When you crash, you crash. And I'm hell-bent on not getting blue-screened. Not with this one.

After ten years...

I'm still not Meredith Grey.

I could have passed you on the sidewalk...

I could have met you in a sandbox
I could have passed you on the sidewalk
Could I have missed my chance
And watched you walk away?

~ "Love Song for No One"
John Mayer

* Unedited pic. Love it when that happens.

Walang magawa. Pinagdidiskitahan mga tao sa tapat hehe.

Moot and Academic

Lately, whenever I find myself wondering about something, like if I should have done this or done that in a different way, the phrase "moot and academic" keeps popping in my head.

Well entrenched is the rule that where the issues have become moot and academic, there is no justiciable controversy, thereby rendering the resolution of the same of no practical use or value. [Garcia vs. COMELEC, G.R. No. 121139 July 12, 1996 citing Southeast Asia Manufacturing Corporation vs. Municipal Council of Tagbilaran, 94 SCRA 341 (1979); Yorac vs. Magalona, 3 SCRA 76 (1961) (emphasis Mine)]

Maybe it's my sub-conscious' way of telling me stop worrying?

Langyang utak yan. Moot and academic indeed.